and again...

I forgot, one more thing. A couple days ago my sister and I were laughing about how when I was around seven and she was around five, we had to write down what we wanted to be "when we grew up." She said she wanted to be an artist. And something she reminded me of, something I'd forgotten...I wanted to be a missionary. Since around ten or so I abandoned that idea because I didn't think God was calling me to that. But now...now I don't know. God may be changing my mind. I almost feel like God is tapping me on the shoulder and saying, "Lauren, I'm changing your heart, your desires, everything, because this is what and who I made you to be." Is it? I'll be praying. I don't know quite what that means, as in overseas missions? in a church in America? just through something else? But maybe, maybe I might want to actually do that, something I thought I'd never be called to do. God is crazy.