things aren't quite like what they used to be

In England, they talk so fast and with such a strong accent that sometimes it's almost like they're speaking another language. I often have to ask people to repeat something they've just said. I really love the accent though. My friends Katie and Rebecca were teaching me how to speak British, not posh British or cockney, just with a "normal" accent, and now I can fake a really good British accent. I've also learned a bunch of British phrases that everyone says. My favorite one, which is a bunch of English-ese strung together, is "That's rather spiffing, flowerpot!"

I have a problem. I am interested in too many things to pick one major and one interest and one career. I told Sabrina that I know whatever I do will have to do with people because one of my theories is that people are the most important things to invest in because they're the only things that will last forever. And that I want to care for people's souls, not their bodies, though that's a highly commendable career. While I was talking to her I realized how ironic that is that God would call me to such a career when I am so introverted. But God would do something like that. He would call me to something so opposite of what I first thought I'd do. I look back at the journey I took to end up where I am right now and I realize that I never would have expected to end up here. But you know what? This is the right place for me to be right now. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that God has led me to this place.

You hear people talk a lot about God's will for your life, and figuring out what it is. I think a lot of people expect a sudden and complete revelation from God and then they're set for life. I don't think God works that way. I think it's more of taking steps and each one leading you to the next one. You don't know what's ten steps ahead, or even two. All you can do is take the next step and pray that God leads you the rest of the way. Often you don't feel like you're going anywhere at all. But then you'll look behind you and see the footprints that led you to where you're now standing, and you can see God's work in it all.

But I do, I honestly do way too often wish I knew what my future held. It drives me crazy not to know. But then again I feel like if I knew where I'm supposed to end up, I'd just work my way there and stop trusting God to get me there.

I think I like to blog because it enables me to organize my thoughts so I can sleep at night.